What's a boy to do?

I like the sound of this blog title.. it is a song by Mat Kearney, it sounds nice. Check him out.

Umm.. other than that random fact life seems to be continuing along eerily well. I finally came to the conclusion that if I think I am not in a rut and all is well, then most likely I am in a big rut. My last blog resulted in being a lot of smoke and mirrors, which brings me to some introspection. Why is it so easy to set lofty goals, only to fall right back into your old ways? What is it about human nature that makes us such weak creatures?? Dont get me wrong, during my long hours of introspection at work, I have concluded that definitively I am capable of doing anything I set my mind to. I sincerely believe that too! But for some reason it is very hard for me to set my mind to doing things. Fear is a great and evil crippling device, and it works too efficiently I believe.

I wound up taking a semester off from school kind of, and am working for a while. I technically do have one class, gen chem, and it is going to be annoying, but not a hinderance. It is interesting for me to think about the persuit of education and what it means. I LOVE LOVE LOVE acquiring knowledge. I honestly think that if education was free I could sit down and study everything. unfortunately, my pocketbook and also my future family would not apprectiate this. But I am finding it difficult to think of all the school I have left. I mean is 5 or 6 more years really worth it? Thats a long time. I guess its something I have to work out for myself, but I am in a pensive mood, and have no one to talk to about it, seeing as how it is 12:34 AM. Blogging when its light outside is not nearly as effective.

I can't find anything more that is really too pressing that I feel like sharing with anyone who stumbles accross my blog. There is always something churning in my head though, and I would always love to run ideas past people if they dont mind listening to my incessant babble. Hit me up sometime, if your timing is right, I might even buy you dinner so you will listen to me. Over and out.