Overthinkin'

Here I am, at the end of a pretty crappy week. Officially, I am now on spring break, no school or work for a week. I am pretty excited about this, because honestly, it has been a tough one. I had 2 tests on Wednesday, followed by a 10 page paper on Friday. This may not sound like a lot, but you see, I have a gift, I call it the gift of procrastination. I probably could have worked on this paper previously, but its almost like I need the impending doom of a pressing deadline to motivate me to do my best work. without a crunch from one side, I find it difficult to produce. I sat down at least 3 times in the previous 3 weeks, and would usually stare blankly at the white screen until I got a headache or lazy, whichever came first. (I bet you can guess.... and no, I didnt take much ibuprofen this week) needless to say, here I am at midnight, working on a paper that I have no desire to finish, 10 pages is a lot to write even when it is something I feel strongly about, or enjoy. but 10 pages on some lame paper that someone is going to read once kind of irks me. I mean honestly, where do they get off? Enough about my ranting, the main purpose of this blog is to free my mind and allow me write more easily. it seems that if you clear your head, your thoughts tend to leak out in a much more streamlined fashion, and writing stupid tedious papers becomes easier.
Not a whole lot else is new with me. School is chugging along, I feel that I did mediocre on the 2 tests I had earlier this week, clearly not a good indicator of how my study habits have been in the last few months. I am redoubling my efforts, and I am hopeful that this semester will still be marked as a W when all is said and done.I have tried to become a wee bit more socially active, much to my chagrin. I hate having to throw myself out into uncomfortable situations and feel what its like to be judged. I am finally attending the correct ward, all by myself. A new feeling, and I feel like it has given me some insight on how new converts and less active members feel. It is hard to be out of my comfort zone when not even 100 feet away are all of my friends and people who love me. Its an interesting condition, and one that I am not altogether enjoying. I hope to be able to look back and merit some sort of growth from it all, but time alone will tell.
Spring break should prove to be fun, some friends and I are going camping in southern Utah, San Rafael Swell to be precise. It will be a nice getaway, as much as I enjoy Salt Lake, I need to get out and remind myself what its like to not be stuck in a stupid city all day long. I guess that I am gonna go, I will take pictures on our trip, and maybe if we are lucky I will even put some up for everyone to see. Till next time.