A Bittersweet symphony and its my Life!

It has been a while, and honestly I really have been thinking hard about something to blog about, but it has been hard. My life has been moving really fast and crazy, but for some reason nothing too noteworthy sticks out. Oh, and just so everybody knows, I think my whole last blog was a lie. I haven't grown up at all, and I don't know that things worked out like I thought they would. But hey, life goes on brah, life goes on.
So Today I quit my job. It was the longest I have ever had a job, and it has pretty much been one of the only constants in my life since I came home from my mission. Hence the bittersweet symphony. I mean, I'm not going to lie, I loved leaving that place. Nevertheless, I will miss certain parts of it too. I made some good friends there and my job instilled in me the good habit of waking up early. I know, it hurts me to say its a good habit too, but I really think it is. The job has also given me a great means and was a stupendous boost for me to get started out with. I realized this summer though, that my life wasn't really going in the direction I wanted it to be. and after a whole summers worth of thinking I determined that quitting my job and going to school full time would be the answer to most of my problems. Looking back, I am an idiot. Still, I have made a decision and I feel good about it, so gung ho I go. Maybe I will wind up broke and sleeping in Pioneer park in October, or maybe, just maybe things will work out like I planned them to, and life truly will get better.
I also noticed that my blog has turned from its funny light that it used to be. I think it is a reflection of my life. I haven't been thinking of irony or satire in a long time, so I promise that I am going to be ironic and satirical for the rest of this week so that I may gain some ammo for the blog of the century. Anyway, I have the next little while free of work and ready to play with people, so if anybody gets lonely and wants to chill, just give me a ring. If you have my number that means I will chill with you, if you don't, well ask, maybe I am feeling generous. I feel really scared and really happy at the same time right now, Its kind of exciting not knowing what lays in front of me. It is a feeling I haven't had for about a year now. Last time I kinda let things go to waste, so now I know a little better that I need to take advantage of life as it comes at me, and to let things happen, and not force them to happen my way. Life is on the uphill slide, and I am looking forward to the challenge!

What an Odd Life I Live.

Hey guys, you know me. Its almost one and so I decided that Sleeping is overrated. No just kidding, I decided that since only the people whom I care about and whom I assume care about me read this I would give them a little update.
As you can tell by my previous posts, I have been having somewhat of a crisis lately, or perhaps it wasnt all that evident, but I was FREAKIN out. I am happy to report that as of tonight most of my problems are either resolved or back to a level where I can coherently deal with myself and my sanity. I just wanna say how evident it has been made to me that the Lord is in our lives and knows each one of us on a personal basis. It was honestly one of the worst and best nights of my life tonight. haha, I feel like I am probably the only person laughing about it, (maybe you K-dawg, but doubtful). I had a super interesting experience and a first for me. I love human interaction, but I hate participating in it. Honestly It was a really good thing, and I feel like I did a LOT of growing up. I learned a lot about myself, and learned that Love is something much more than one dimensional, and that for love to be unconditional, it has to go beyond our own desires. It really is better to love and lose than to never love at all. haha, I feel all sappy and like a chick flick, but it has been one of those nights, and I really have debated about writing about it, but I need to let everyone know. Life is good, and I know that the Lord has a good plan for me and for all of us. Look at me getttin all emotional and religious. Very atypical. but it feels good to be me and let everybody else decide. I am a good guy, and I dont care if you think different. HAR HAR! Ok, I am out, I have much more to say, but no desires to type it out, if you wanna talk, call me, I will chat your ear off.

Early blog

Hey all, I know this is a rare occasion, I am bloggin in the PM, but you know, I have to work tomorrow. Anywho, I was spending some time with 2 of my favorite people this weekend, namely Corbin and Aimee Smith, and they let me know that they are true fans of the blog, so this one goes out to them. They complained that I don't write enough, even though I think I write just as much as them. So I will tell you all about my week this week. It has been a very interesting one to say the least.
This week was one of those weeks when I spent more time thinking about my life and things in general than doing anything else. It was funny because I felt like a teenage girl. One second I was really happy and exciting about everything, and the next I felt like I needed to cry. Monday was a decent day, I didn't have to work, which is always awesome. I basically just did chores around the house and cleaned up after my roommates. I never realized how dirty I was until I finally had to clean up after myself. To be frank, I am disgusting. (Ladies don't read too much into that, I can change). Continuing, that night I couldn't sleep. I had lots on my mind. Things that I prefer not to blog because it could get messy. Then on Tuesday I had to wake up at 6 and go to work again. It was one of the hardest days in a long time. I worked for like 2 hours and then I came home and slept until 2. It felt good at the time, but it worked out that I couldn't sleep on Tuesday night either because of the previous eternal nap. Then came the 4th of July. In my previous blogs I talked a little about being American, but let me say it again, I love this country and I am dang freaking proud to be from here. I love the songs and the decorating, and the spirit that is felt around the 4th. It seems like everybody is a little more friendly and everybody just wants to have a good time. I love barbecues, and fireworks and the FREAKING NATIONAL ANTHEM. Needless to say, the 4th was like the best day this week by far. I had a family reunion in the morning that was pleasantly nice. I came expecting the worst and got a fairly good time out of it. It was good to see the fam and spend time with everybody. After that we went to Sugar House and watched some firecrackers. It was a fantastic evening, and I thoroughly enjoyed the people who I was with. After that I had a fairly boring weekend, but It was nice to take a little time off and just have some me time to continue pondering life's great riddles. Which seem to become more complex and never have an end. Pandoras box I tell ya.
Well there is a blog for you Aim and Corb. Hope your happy. And to anyone else who reads this, give me a shout out if you want a dedicatory blog. PEACE, cause I gots to work.

Bluh

Well, I haven't written anything in a while, in part because of my laziness, and in part because not much has been happening in the way of note-worthyness. It just seems like my day to day life is quite boring, but what happens in my head is like going a gagillion miles per second. I dont know, but recently I became quite introspective. While sometimes I do like to reflect on myself and my current state. I feel like I do it like 3 or 4 times a day lately. Oddly enough my opinion of myself changes almost as much as I think about how I am doing. Its odd because really I have nothing to complain about, I have a great job, I'm not even going to school right now, I have great friends, and they provide me with plenty to do, but for some reason I feel the need to change. The problem right now isn't that I am opposed to change, its just that I can't seem to pinpoint what it is that I need to change. Trust me, it is one of the most frustrating things in my life! So I have decided to write and write until maybe something comes to mind.
Moving along, I had a pretty busy weekend last weekend. I got Friday off of work, and I went on a rafting adventure with my ward. It was a lot of fun, and a great change of pace. I got to know a lot of people that I had seen before, but only chatted with. It was great because it reminded me how much I like getting to know people and that I shouldn't be so shy all the time. It seems like I am more shy now than I was before my mission. Another conundrum. Someday I will understand myself, and then I will learn to understand other people. I hope that someday is sooner rather than later. Other than that I have just been chillin. I have a great streak almost 2 months long now of seeing a movie in the theatre every weekend. Tonight I watched Live Free or Die Hard, and to be honest it was refreshing. Obviously it was completely unrealistic, and lacked any sense of a plot, but all in all it was nice to know that there still are Bad A** people out there who don't take shiz from anybody, even if they are fictional. It's great to see the good guy blow everything up and shoot himself to kill the bad guy. For some reason I feel like there is something profoundly American about it. This is a great weekend to feel American. I don't know that I was proud to be an American before my mission, but honestly living somewhere else really makes you appreciate home. When I think of Francis Scott Key writing, it is crazy to me. He was writing about an Ideal then, and while I agree that the United States is far from the perfect nation that it was envisioned to be, I can honestly say that there is nowhere else I would rather be, any day of the week, at any point of my life. Where else can I freely write about what a crock everything is, and not be punished for doing so? America is great! and life is getting better every day! Blogging is a cure to whatever ails you mentally, I hope that everyone can detect my change of mood just by writing random things. I am sure that this doesn't flow at all, but I don't care because it did what it was supposed to. Hallelujah!

40 days and 40 nights!

Ok so it hasn't been that long since I last used the internet, but by jove it feels like it sometimes. I had forgotten the soothing nature of the beast that is blogging. Secretly I wondered why I felt like I had so many pent up emotions. Then I realized that its because I haven't had my normal recourse of venting to no one. haha! Anywho, not too much is new, Just livin the dream as my boss puts it. I guess that this is just an update until I have something newer and more exciting to say. so, PAZ AFUERA!

Don't know what you've got till it's gone.

This is a great song, I wonder if anyone else has ever heard it. If not, it comes recommended by the Lon. Anywho, today was my first day back at work after a weeks vacation. hence the title of this blog. I hadn't realized how beautiful not working was, until today when I had to work again. IT probably doesn't help that today was like my worst working day in like 100 years. I think that I was mad enough that if somebody had said something to me I would have ripped their entrails out and used them to make a noose for hanging their still alive bodies from. Yes, graphic, but I'm still not sure if that provides accurate description of how I feel after today. Anyway, Besides work sucking the big one, and me wishing that I could have like a 75 year paid vacation all is going pretty well. I am eating a KFC bowl, they arent the best things in the world, but when you want mashed taters and gravy, and have a huge case of Huevon-itis, they totally hit the spot. oh yeah, Huevon is spanish for useless lazy person. Well, I just wanted all you people who dont enjoy your time off that it is a precious commodity, and that I am starting a new campaign for a 2 day work week. 2 days on, 5 days off. All who feel the same can join my bandwagon, and we shall ride that pony until it croaks!!

Why can't I blog in daylight hours?

Well, it is 1:47am, and I am deathly tired. I know I should be in bed. But for some reason when I look at my bookmarks and see my blog it calls out to me. My friends all have cool pictures on their blogs. I should start taking my camera places with my so I can have some neat pics too. Just a thought.
Anywho, the real reason I decided that I need to write something before sleeping is because I need to get something out of my head, even if it is for all 10 of you to read (yes, blog readers are increasing). Over the past 6 months the whole wedding/love thing has become an issue in my life. I'm not exactly sure if it is because every person I know is getting married, or coming close to it, or if it is just like my own clock saying that it is time. Buuuut, for some reason as of late it has started to bother me. I think I have even determined my greatest fear. Winding up alone. This is a really uncharacteristic blog for me, I usually try to make them entertaining. Even a good comedy needs some drama I guess. I digress. I just wonder some days if I can find the one who matches up with me the way I want to. Or if I will picky my way out of anything (thanks Aimee's mom). Its hard to write this and not feel like a complete loser for typing my thoughts out for everyone to read. but oh well, I need somebody to talk to, and nobody is awake at 1:54. So you can all read away. I wonder if this is reading ok, because I am just typing thoughts as they enter my head. OK, well, I am young, and not all that handsome, but I do have a certain boyish charm. So I am gonna mount back up, grow a pair, and start to see what I can do about finding a solution to my problems instead of blogging about them.
Well, I think that is all. my emotional Lon has hidden himself away again. I will go back to being happy and go lucky.