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So, another kinda random update, life is getting better, but it is still meh. I am trying to mix things up a little and maybe become more active in the dating scene. I know I know, it goes against everything I stand for, but sometimes you have to make sacrifices.
Work is going pretty well, I enjoy my job and the people I work with. I had kind of a bad week last week though. I backed into a retaining wall and scratched the bumper on my truck, and then a day later I ran over a dog. It is kind of a funny story, but sad. The dog had been missing for a few weeks, so the owners had already made peace with the fact that the dog was gone. Anyhow, there were some crazy hippie ladies who stopped behind me and were freaking out about the dog, and trying to save it even though it wasn't moving. So long story short, I killed a dog in my work truck.
Good news, this weekend I met up with 2/3 of my blog readers and went to Corb and Aim's house for a b-day barbecue! It was so much fun to hang with them again! They are seriously the best ever and always make me happy to see them. (David, the other 1/3 of readership unfortunately wasnt there, but was missed)
I went home teaching today, and we talked about how fear keeps us from doing things in life. I got to thinking about it, and I really think that fear keeps me from doing most things that I dont do, good or bad. I guess maybe not as much bad, but definitely good. I just find it interesting that I let fear control so much of my life, especially when I dont consider myself as an easily scared person. We also talked about ways to conquer this fear, like doing the best you are able and leaving the rest up to the Lord. I realized that I need to take more risks, and leave my confort zone a little more often, because growth is what I am missing. It is a scary realization, but an important one. So for the month of August, Growth is my theme! and leaving my comfort zone in an effort to try and do new things. there will be updates, because one of the things I want to change is to stop being so lazy, and actually accomplish something. So there we go. a new blog.

WTF Mate?

Well, here goes theraputic bloggin session number 12. haha, Life lately has been kind of interesting. For some reason I just dont feel happy. I dont feel like I have made any changes, or done anything different than before, but I am just not feeling the fulfillment I desire. To be frank, I kinda feel like I suck at life lately. Dont go thinking I am suicidal, because I am not, but I am frustrated with the results I am receiving. I'm not even sure how to verbalize how I feel, but its not necessarily bad, just uncomfortable. Its a new and interesting senesation, and I am still discovering how to react. Lots of things have kind of come to a head, and I realize that my worry-free way of life is a less effective example of getting things done. I kinda tucked myself into a shell and went back to an emotionless state. I dont think it agrees with me, I need to wear my emotions on my sleeve, because if I dont, they just wont come out, and it makes things awkward. I am trying to decide if I need to take a semester off from school and try to get a little for financially stable, maybe try and make some big decisions, but for some reason it is difficult to make these big decisions lately. I just dont care, while caring all the while. I got accepted to the University of Utah as a nonresident, so I can continue with school, but it is $7000 a semester. I dont know if I am willing to take that much of a hit for one semester of school. I am also working on deciding what and where the rest of my life will take me. I also feel bad because I have been a major slacker with Church callings, (sorry Shae) but I just dont seem to be able to do something to make me interested in continuing on. It is all very wierd and becoming quite frustrating. Dont think that I am depressed, because I'm not, Frankly, I dont know what I am, but definitely not depressed. Apathetic? I guess thats probably worse. What shall become of this wretched soul that I am? Tune in next week and maybe I will have a new story to tell, till then, this is just a random update.